\u201cWhat\u2019s your favourite album?\u201d, she asked. \u201cIn Utero\u201d, I replied, surprising her with the answer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I started listening to Nirvana when I was 17. Soft verses and loud choruses\u2014 I got a kick out of it. I don\u2019t miss that time of my life where I drowned myself in substances, surrounded by opportunists.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I listened to Nirvana to let go. I listened to Nirvana to lose myself and find myself again. I listened to Nirvana to rage. And rage, I did. On myself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She brought Nirvana back to me, the way I loved it. I could see the happiness on her gentle face, when I yelled \u201csomeone play Lithium\u201d, not knowing she was the DJ.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
We talked about Kurt and Nirvana while washing dishes, I loved how she couldn\u2019t stop talking about it. I wanted to hear it all, knowing damn well she can go for hours.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I was minding my business sitting near the window in the bus, she had to come sit by me.
I happened to be shuffling through Nevermind.
We had a small chat, but I could see her face In Bloom.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
When we talked about my favourite album, she was caught off guard I said In Utero. I tried to play Dumb\u2014 thinking to myself\u2014 Do I look like a Smells like teen spirit guy to her? I had the opportunity to argue with her then, like we always argued about everything, but I pulled back, thinking it was a bad idea to Milk it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She\u2019s not here. We talk everyday, I try to act normal. But nothing is okay. I feel barriers, I feel there\u2019s something in the way. I want her all by myself. And I want her now. I want to live in her heart-shaped box, so that she makes the pennyroyal tea for me and I get to dip my favourite marigold biscuits in it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So, one more time I scream the loud chorus that I enjoyed in my teens\u2014 COME, AS YOU ARE. As Kurt maybe smiles at me from above, saying \u201cYou got a good one there.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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