\u201cYou said it!\u201d she exclaimed. \u201cOf course, I said it,\u201d I thought to myself. I wasn\u2019t impressed by the coffee, but I would pay 2 euros for a cup every day for the rest of my life if I could watch her make it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In hindsight, of course it all started with an unplanned coffee “date.” I don\u2019t remember much of what was said; it was oddly silent, just the way I like it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Now, as I reminisce, the only time I paid attention to her was when she kept whisking her coffee around the house. I remember being amused by her little hands making the whisking sound with her tiny cup.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Throughout my life, I’ve used coffee as a tool, a tool to keep me sane, at least for a little while. She made me fall in love with coffee again\u2014the experience. We have different preferences, of course; she prefers the gayer version, while I like my coffee as it should be.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don\u2019t know when or how it all started, the daily coffee ritual. But I started looking forward to mornings when I have her in my arms on the sofa. Just as we’re about to fall asleep, I tell her \u201cYou know where we\u2019re gonna go in the morning? \u201cCoffee!\u201d She chuckles every time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Waking her up, distracting her in the elevator, ordering the solito, cleaning her seat, diverting her attention from the birds around her, smiling at her innocence when she stops to take a picture to send to her mother, having a pointless, no-filter conversation with her\u2014all this while smoking cigarettes, and distracting her on the way back\u2014that\u2019s my routine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019ve hated bad coffee perpetually. But when she\u2019s sitting across from me, when she take a sip, I love to watch her lips flutter. Life\u2019s too short to have bad coffee, but I don\u2019t care\u2014 because I have her with me. Let me die while I watch her drinking coffee. A beautiful last sight.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
That cup of coffee doesn\u2019t hit the same now, even if it\u2019s Pew Caffe. I want to have coffee, but with my little pomo. It\u2019s daunting to think that nothing tastes the same without her, apart from the cigarettes\u2014they’re still loyal to me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cShould I kill myself or have a cup of coffee,\u201d I feel like I\u2019m losing the will to live slowly. But I close my eyes and think about the mornings after she\u2019s back.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The sun, coffee, cigarettes, and her. Sign me up to live another day.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I look forward to having my arm around her neck while she sleeps on my chest, and the last word she hears before falling asleep\u2014\u201cCoffee.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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