\u201cIt\u2019s like watching a Doberman with a pink bow\u201d, she said. I nodded with my usual \u201cummhmm\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
How does she even think of something like that? I\u2019m reminded, she\u2019s a woman. She\u2019s sensitive, she\u2019s feminine, she\u2019s godly even \u2014but most importantly\u2014 a woman. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
What else do I want?\u2014I ask my greedy soul every night before I fall asleep. Nothing pops in my head, like always. But, gradually\u2014 I notice a beautiful thought creeping in. \u201cI want more of her.\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Why do I want more of her?\u2014 Because there\u2019s always novelty when you have a feminine woman in your life. There\u2019s always something to look forward to. There\u2019s always joy, there\u2019s always beauty in the most tiniest things, there\u2019s always melancholy, there\u2019s always laughter, there\u2019s always tears\u2014 there\u2019s always love\u2014and there\u2019s always ways to show that love.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
How do I know there\u2019s love?\u2014 I know it\u2019s there because of the sudden, unwarranted, sneaky bites. I know it\u2019s there because at breakfast time I\u2019m asked what I want to eat for lunch. I\u2019m reminded\u2014\u201cThis fucking woman\u201d. She\u2019s everything I could ask for. I know it\u2019s there because she cares. Cares enough to always look after me. Searches the entire house upside down for a medicine if I\u2019m hurt. That care. That faithful smile when she asks me what I want to eat. That\u2019s how I know it\u2019s there.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What does she give me? Most of my days\u2014 even though eventful\u2014were always filled with sorrow and dullness. I can read, I can code, I can distract myself with \u201chobbies\u201d. But no attempt to escape that dullness is successful. And then there\u2019s her. Every time I\u2019m done with work, my instinct is to get in bed with her again, even though it\u2019s for a few minutes. Every time I feel nothing, my instinct is to smoke with her. And even if there\u2019s silence during we smoke\u2014 I know she\u2019s there and I\u2019m content. That\u2019s what she gives me. Peace.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What will I do for her? \u201cI\u2019ll give her a White House with blue shutters\u201d\u2014 I\u2019ll give her everything she wants. The later house, the animals, the pink utensils, the family pictures, the little shed in the garden with a fireplace and ferry lights. I\u2019ll give her needs and wants. I\u2019ll give her safety. I\u2019ll give her reassurance of my love. I\u2019ll give her pomegranates. I\u2019ll draw her pomegranates. I\u2019ll sing for her. I\u2019ll write for her. I\u2019ll give her memories she wouldn\u2019t forget all her life\u2014even if she tries to.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What do I ask from her?\u2014I ask for her patience. It will take months, years, or a decade to get there. It will be with trials and tribulations\u2014But it will be there. She\u2019ll have everything she wants because I\u2019ll give it to her. It hurts me to see her face when she wants something but she can\u2019t have it. But it\u2019s a test. Like everything else in life. If she hangs in there with me when I\u2019m down\u2014She\u2019ll get to sit on my shoulders as I go up. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Her femininity is the calm harbour that anchors my sanity during the wrenching storms of life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My queen. Me \u2014her guard\u2014her Doberman with a pink bow. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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