\u201cI physically cannot wait\u201d, she said. I cannot wait too, I thought. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am I going insane? All I could think about was her\u2014 all these days. Waiting patiently for her calls and messages, for her stories and laughs, I left a part of me incomplete for her to fill up. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Going all the way to Rome, to pick her up. I am going insane. But does she not deserve the insanity? Does she not deserve every ounce of effort? Every drop of my blood? Every pound of my flesh? <\/p>\n\n\n\n
To this day, I wait patiently. I wait as I sit in the bus tracking her flight. I wait patiently for her to show me the books she bought. I wait patiently for the kisses, and for the scoldings. I wait patiently to hold her purse, to relieve her of her burdens, to look out for her so that she doesn\u2019t have to be attentive.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fuck no! There is little left of the patience I talk about. I\u2019m done with waiting now that I look out in the sun from the window of this bus, as I look at trees and flowers and farms passing by. As I watch tiny houses, streams of water, little hills pass by. She needs to be here to talk about them. How long should I ponder to myself about the wonders of the world?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Your gaze and the supple cheeks is what I missed. Your perspective on the little things, the eager rage when you talk about the things you like\u2014that hypnotic sparkle in your eyes is what I missed. The soft touch on my face, lulling me to sleep is what I missed. And I wish to miss these no more.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Brains and thoughts, theories and follies, stories and tales. I\u2019m done reading, I\u2019m done reciting memories, I\u2019m done scrolling down the past, I\u2019m done looking at the worldly beauties. I want you. And I want you forever. I\u2019ll have you forever.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Out of every bleak memory of the past 17 days, I held hope, like I always do. At the end of every day, good or bad, I retired in my soul, for I found peace knowing soon there will be a day I will have you in arms. Counting weeks, counting days to counting hours. I\u2019m counting hours as I write this. And I wish to count no more. For how long should I clasp on to this unholdable\u2014-<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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