\u201cCan I refresh now?\u201d, she said. A whiff of joy percolating inside me every time she says those words. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s 4 am. I can\u2019t sleep. Driven into the exhausting spirals that consume me, I\u2019m watching her sleep. Innocence. She sleeps without a worry in the world, I will always envy her for that. Her upper lip arches above her lower lip. Her hair is messy, her palms sit together in each other, as if she\u2019s praying. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
With a fear of accidentally waking her up I come outside and light a cigarette. The spirals, again. It\u2019s been so long since I couldn\u2019t sleep. I look forward to the morning, when she reads this.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The mornings where I kiss her, I look at her, hear her voice after a long, unnecessary pause for the night\u2014(I have a perpetual wish of listening to her talk) <\/p>\n\n\n\n
To see her smile, hear her laugh. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Through all the problems drowning me out, she holds my back and makes me float over them. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
If I\u2019m conquered by the voices, if I\u2019m worried about the future, if the health of closed one\u2019s concerns me, if I\u2019m thinking of jealous family members who are more dangerous than hateful enemies, she makes me stand in a spot on the street and asks me\u2014 \u201cWhat do you want for lunch?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And everything fades away as if she\u2019s holding her sage in her hand, purifying my soul. Her beautiful stern face. I find myself mesmerised, in awe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
As if she hits refresh.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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